Alcohologic

I hear the down pour, such solemn taste.
Was it a satisfaction of a common heartache?
There I feel the numb-tender-jerk; a placid masquerade.
I spit up, till I choke. (How?)
Now I tried to raise the bottle as I empty it out.
Its easy to drown and lay silent
from all the commotion around; naught.
As the heart beats like the clinks
of ice tubes floating along with
the bubbly airs of the night.
I felt dissatisfied...

Intro..

Its been several-drastic-days, I have almost shelved this entry; been writing on scattered notes for Alcohologic but wasn't able to find the time to actually sit down and mash the pieces in one.
So here it goes..from the title I bet you know what I'm going to tackle about, eh? I'm pretty sure you got the hint from there.

Alcohol is a man's shoulder to cry on and a nurse's handy obsession (well, on a different case that is..).

Alcoholic drinks have 3 classes: wine, beer and spirits (distilled or more known as hard liquor). While surrogate alcohols includes: paints, cologne, rubbing alcohol, hydrogen peroxide, Antifreeze on engines and liquid soaps, etc (these are liquids containing alcohol which you can't drink or else tsugi ka).



I remember this one portion @MTB (Magandang Tanghali Bayan): Kaylangang contestants 3 siga-looking-guys mga tigasin! The 3 of them sat infront of a table with a bottle of beer each. "Unahan yan malamang!" Alam nyo na ba kung ano gagawin? Pero walang laman ang beer bottle. Unahan nga ang game na ito. Hindi ito kakainin. Game na ba? Hindi nyo ipupukpok. Wag matigas ulo, unahan talaga ito. Unahang maka-puno ng bote, punuin dapat ng...mga luha! At ang pinakamaraming luha ang mananalo. Mananalo ng isang milyon. Char!

Bilog ang mundo, ika-nga ng TVCM (TV Commercial). Pero Bakit nga ba ang iba bumabaling sa Alkohol, Alkohol. Past time? Hobby? May okasyon? Stressed? Depressed? Trip lang?
Nag-survey ako sa 100 na alcoholic sa kabilang subdivision at ang nasasaad: walang magawa, panulak, vitamins, desert, nag-liver aid naman daw; 'yan ang nag-top-sa-survey. 'Yan ang mga most common answers na nakalap ko sa aking masusing pag-imbestiga.

'nuff said, let's open the bottle shall we?

Before: What's Under the Bottle?

When I went down the stairs, all I need is abit of a walk and shake some senses in me. I feel like its the therapy I've been missing entirely. I need to tell myself that I've been overdoing something.
So I sat down upset, contemplating. 'Where did my fears go?' The ID is kind of surpassing. I should have known what I already know.
I have never drank too much in my entire life, until that night! And I can't find a reason why I did what I did.

When I looked under the bottle, it left me with no answer that I was looking for..just a lesson to be learned, that adds up to that long list. I think, I need to let go and resist. Though sometimes you do craziest things there is.

There's nothing wrong at taking a sip through the edges of what's at risk. Have fun while the bottle lasts. Be at plight with your merry-fellows as you toast for the worries of the night.
But since I can never drown my sorrows that way, still neither can an empty bottle fill my half-full empty heart..

But lest to say, I should explain...this was just a year ago, the month of October to be exact. I was at a Bar with friends for a bday bash. Till I drew dreamy over the Towers of Beer infront of me. I was constantly filling up my glass. One thing led to another, I find myself repeatedly rushing towards the cubicle. I puked numerous times, though I bet my friends didn't notice. Now as I look back at it, natatawa ako, at how crazy, funny and stupid that moment was, sumusuray-suray ako just to get to the comfort room. YEP! That was the first time na sumuka ako. How spot on!
I'm a casual drinker, pero I know my limit. When I have too much I sleep and that's it. The funny thing about that night, dumaan kami sa RC, guess what, pagdating may Donor. And tipsy me, interviewed them guys. Ang utak ko umiikot so far tama naman sinasabi ko pero I've constantly been winking my eyes para gisingin ang utak ko, ang bagal ko bumasa buti kabisado ko sasabihin hehe.

Naka-inum po ba kayo ng alak kanina? Lasing po ba kayo?

^ I asked this question based on the interview sheet. Sa isip-isip ko. How ironic eh?
After the interview screening, diretso tulog.

After: What's with the bottle?

October fest na naman. Merry drinkers could have the say to actually drink their woes away. More reasons to fill one's life at blast. I had my last drink last saturday. Medyo low alcoholic lang pampatulog after a tiring duty. Medyo super tagal na kasi the last time I went out and drink with friends.
So this one rainy night, alone--just-slowly-driving-in-the-middle-of-the-night--with a bottle on hand. I began to terribly miss those days. I don't try to actually say this much often pero I've been missing some-and-all-of-those-sorts-of-unexpected-and-planned-getaways.

I miss room 200 and everyone at Chronicle. Kukies, Starbucks Araneta, Gateway, Marikina, ang Redhorse at billiards.
I miss Bagac Beach, SF, RC night duties, blood works and all.

When I look at the empty bottle on my hand. I wanted to fill it up again.
And the memories of the fun filled days pours in.
Till I felt satisfied.
I guess...

Lemme end this note with a trivia:

Do you know that potatoes, banana, milk, and honey can be fermented to such beverages? Soju are sometimes made out of potatoes. Locally meron tayong Strawberry wine; we also have Ginger wine produced here.

Disclaimer: This article is abit LONG overdue, I know. It frustrates me not to publish it sooner but I've gotten busy this past few months. So long that I've already forgot the type of style or theme I have to use for this chapter.

Just like what e-heads says,

Di mapigil ang bibig, pati sikreto nasasabi
Nasusuka, kumakanta, napa-praning sa isang tabi
Kaya ko pa, yan ang laging sagot niya
Nananaginip ng gising pumupungay ang mata
Lumiliwanag, dumidilim, nadadapa, nauuntog
Pag dalawin ng antok kahit saan natutulog
Bukas may hangover ka, pagising masakit ang ulo
Paano ba ako nakauwi? Shet kailangan ko ng yelo

Alkohol, alkohol, utak mo'y buhol-buhol (4x)
Alkohol, alkohol, alkohol